"VIDEO KILLED THE RADIO STAR..."

"Save tonight..to fight the break of dawn..Come tomorrow..Tomorrow I'll be gone.."

Do you still remember watching MTV in Studio23?...yep, you heard it right!...before Myx, VJ Donita and VJ Mike(yung kasama nya kung di ako mali sa name,hindi Pinoy) hosted MTV Non-Stop Hits. Ya'll know I'm a big fan of music..even back in my younger years. I mean I'm not that old naman, but yeah, at a very young age I would be stuck in the TV watching music videos. My first ever favorite music video was "I believe I can fly" by R.Kelly.! Maybe because it was a soundtrack from my favorite movie "Space Jam"

"At night I think of you..I want to be your lady baby..If your game is on give me a call boo.."

I swear! If that video is playing I would stop whatever I'm doing just to watch, lalo yung part na may kasama na siya na choir!..ASTIG! In fact, my first ever owned album was the the soundtrack of that movie. It was original, no piracy baby!...kasi bigay ng pinsan ko from the states!...an original CD back then was so damn expensive at 350 a pop! Mahal na masyado yan nung time na yun and I was a kid. After a year I guess, I bought my two first ever casette tapes..hehe una pa ako nagkaron ng CD tas casette kasi nga mahal!..I bought "Chocolate Starfish and Hotdog Flavored Water" by Limp Bizkit and "Marshall Matthers LP" by Eminem, both originals at 150 each, medyo mas can afford at medyo palaos pa lang tapes nun so pwede pa. I used my early pamasko to have them. Second album of Eminem if im not mistaken...fan na ako. I also remember buying song hits just to memorize the lyrics cause there was no Myx yet so no subtitles... But those damn song hits minsan mali mali naman pala lyrics.

"You got me crazy..I just can't sleep...I'm so excited..I'm in too deep.."

I am big music fan but unfortunately can't play any musical instrument nor gifted with a voice for public amusement. Can i rap???..HELL YEAH! I do freestyles pa nga..but of course, I wouldnt do it in front of anyone!LOL!.. I was listening to Magic 89.9 this cold friday night cause our radio can't give me my usual dose of Wave 89.1 because of the rain. They are playing 90's music and nakakatuwa cause I know almost every song that they are playing. As I've said in my status..Tumatanda ka na pag alam mo na mga kanta na pineplay sa backtraxx ng Myx o kahit anong program about mga lumang kanta. In my case, siguro masyado lang ako naging fan ng music kahit bata pa ko talaga.

"Baby when were grinding...I got so excited...oohh how I like it..I try but I can't fight it!"

90's music for me was about UK bands like Oasis and Suede. Boy bands and Girl bands lead by Backstreet Boys and Spice Girls...Baby Spice was my crush back then. Metal bands i.e. Metallica and in Hiphop of course was Ice Cube,LL Cool J, Wu Tang Clan and even Will Smith(madame ko naiisip dito syempre so i would stop here na). I was not a big fan of OPM then, but thanks to my olders cousins for playing Eraserheads, Rivermaya (with Bamboo pa as their vocalists) Francis M. and Legit Misfitz kaya nakakakinig na din ako. I can drop hundreds maybe even thousand names of artist and bands from 90's, some can relate and some dont maybe but try to listen to some of it if di nyo inabot masyado. Cause for me there's something in 90's music that is different from today.

"Ooohh baby your so fine...I wanna make you mine..your lipstick taste so sweet.."

I mean Ne-yo, Katy Perry, the bands, OPM artists and everyone today is doing their thing, making dope music and all but its just not the same. For me, maybe its the "good vibes" that the 90's music brings. Lyrics back then - more often than not have that "feel good" effect. Its also maybe because back then the world is different. Life is more easy. No hassles as much as today that it reflects even to the songs. Or its just the cooler temperature.LOL!.. And like in fashion, even in music there's a cycle I guess. I mean like some artists try to do revival of some songs. Some work out and some don't. Others try to use an old song even from 80's and 70's and do remixes, tributes, collaborations and what not. Even the artist itself, some of them try to make a come back and others never went out of the scene but made some changes or reinventions in their genre. Again, some work out and some dont. But that just shows that even with some of the fresh and all these new stuff going on, you just can't leave it behind or you just cant leave it all. The spirit of 90's music or even other eras still ride along with the flow, keep up with the beat and follows the rhytm.

"One last call for alcohol so finish all your whisky or beer...You don't have to go home but you cant stay here.... I know who I want to take me home...take me home..."

Now I can better understand the lyrics and appreciate it more at the same time. I think I can imagine myself listening to some of it even after 20 or 30 more years if possible. I know it is with the help of youtube and the whole world wide web. Whatever it is in 90's music, its more than enough for me to go back listening to those music once in a while and it would surely not fail to give me some good relaxing easy ride down memory lane.

"Let's give thanks and praise to the Lord...and everything will be alright...."

MAJOR NOTE TO SELF

I'm living a not very well pleasured life. Almost everyday experiencing bitin in almost everything. Love, happines and of course datung. So yeah, well I'm trying to make some changes in this life. I may find it not that easy to turm things completely around or simply just in the way I want it, but I aint backing down.

The last few months after that day I thought my life would change in an instant, actually it has been very hard for me. For a moment I felt I have no reason and direction. "Yeah, so what now?". I asked myself this and got no answer for days maybe even weeks. Then I turned my attention to seek to what's next idealy at this point of my life. Trying to catch to what I still havent caught until now (But i prayed that this will be found in the very near future). The last few months have been very hard for me, I let my PAST, PRESENT and FUTURE really gets the best out of me. My family being the direct casualty most of the time of biglaang pagsusungit. I tried to deal with all of it at the same time leading me to nowhere. I thought of trying things in different directions to escape from it, but this cowardly approach obviously never really worked out for me.

Last night a part of me came back. That part that makes me think thoroughly enough how to face it rationally, a part of me I never noticed missing just until it came back. I don't know how. Since Wednesday(8.11.11) I started to feel something positive. And yeah, for the Nth time, I have another shot of finding resource. Last night I end up having a plan how to control and maybe even defeat the monster that I made that beats the hell out of me almost everyday since it slipped out of his mouth. I don't know where will I end up with plan or even how to execute it but I know its still possible. And maybe after this, hopefully I can try to be GENUINELY and GENERALLY happy. For the record, even my "someone" doesnt know where I'm coming from. Same time last night I just thought of letting this out in an open note but still not letting anyone to clearly understand me.